You accuse me of betrayal.
You of all people who abandoned me.
You who betrays your own heart.
you who claimed to keep an open heart to our future, but never meant it.
That is betrayal Martin.

The months leading up to the point you thought we could be together, that bad feeling I supposedly give you obviously not existing. When id say something cute youd respond in kind, when id say something provocative youd act interested..
funny how that dynamic works, give and take.
funny how when you pull away and stop responding in kind the dynamic fails
bad feelings are created

funny how you refuse to see even the possibility that most of our issues were related to ourside sources, in our lives and not US. How loving one another could have made those things more bearable...Instead you make everything harder, colder, lonelier.

how dare you tell me we dont work, when it is you who refuses to give anything.
You cannot suck up everything I try to give you, and return nothing and expect it to work.
and yet that is exactly what you have done
How many times can I say I love you and not hear it back before feeling personally attacked

you refuse to look at reality

I DEFY YOU to really put a god damn effort into me and THEN tell me we dont work
I DARE you to make love to me every day for a week and see how many times we fight that week, or the week after or the week after that...
how many times you get that "bad feeling" in those weeks.
I double dare you to to tell me that you love me, and see if Im worried when youre too busy to talk for a few days.

it's EASY to tell me *we* dont work when *you* don't lift a finger.

Asshole

I never fucking betrayed you.
I trusted the wrong people
We have both said hurtful spiteful childish things to one another over the years you are not innocent of this either. That is not a betrayal, it is a mistake done in hurt

. I am loyal to you, always even in all my anger and frustration towards you I speak kindly of you to others.

a few slips, through humiliated tears is a betrayal to you?
fuck you no one can possibly live up to your hypocritical standards