How quickly would I go back to Justin, or someone like him?
how desperate for some outside source of comfort am I?

What person does not require human comfort,
human touch.

it's hardwired in, this need.

we are social creatures. we are sensory creatures.

I am in sensory deprivation

this pain has got to be for something.
I have to make it count for something.
I couldn't bear the thought of all this pain for nothing.
I need to be fucking incredible.